Banana Cream Pie. I want one. Not the ones you get at the cafe. A home made one.

Revy. Call me sometime wench.

It's been calm. Almost too calm. Aside from the day to day bustle.

Renji, if you're interested the kids are back home now. I should have called sooner but I've been a little on the busy side.

Life's good


I'm banging mother fuckin Johnny Depp. Hell yeah. I always told that jackass I'd leave him for Johnny someday.

Carry on carry on.

Three things I wanted to get done. Three things accomplished.


*Shop closed up, items stored and store placed on the market.

* House placed on the market. I will finish moving things to storage and where ever their new homes will be by Friday.

* Package sent.


Productive today. Now, for the other big decision regarding my kids. I am still working on that.

The stars are really pretty tonight. I hadn't realized just how long it has been since I just lied in the grass and looked at them. is there really more out there than what we see on the surface? Perhaps. And perhaps it's just our mind telling us that obvious facts are not really as is. Situations change, but really it's the same tired old song with a different melody.

How exactly does one pick up the pieces? It seems to me that a lot of people are being faced with that question these days.

I'm tired of being a mess, I am tired of this self soothing. I am tired of being taken for granted. I am tired of being pushed to the side or back burner in favor of other people or other things. I am tired of feeling alone.

Mostly, I'm just tired.

I am supposing when dealing with certain matters, some people find it easier to just be angry the entire time. It's a little perplexing to me as, I should be the one angry. Yet...I'm not. I am merely disappointed with choices made. It's odd really. The entire encounter was enlightening though. Quite enlightening indeed.

More food for feeding this hungry mind of mine I suppose.


I think I'm trying to save the world from you
You’ve been saving me too
We could just stay in and save each other

What... I... Oh god..


Whomever spoke to Grimmjow in the last day or so...I need....Jesus this can't be.

Damn you. God damn you. You son of a bitch. You fucking selfish bastard.

( +Private//Unhackable )


I...I don't even know.

...


ANyone else making out with my husband behind my back? Because yeah this shit is getting rather old. Finding out shit threw the grape vine and a dollar short and a day late.


Fuckers.

Interesting thing to wake up to. At least now I know, it's better than living in a lie.

( Private// To Grimmjow )

I wonder if I should send cheese and a leash... because I am seeing a bitch doing nothing but whine.

Such a shame there. Oh well.

Boxes; there are still so many of them around here. I think it will be a little easier once the shed is finished being built.

Dinner on the gazebo tonight. Then being lazy in the nice hammock.

Grimmjow, if you would on your way back here stop by and get some milk? Chocolate syrup and corn chips too if you see any that look good.

Slowly things are starting to feel a little closer to normal. I don't know in spite of everything I feel oddly at peace, which is a strange feeling in it's self. I could do with a little more of that though.

( Private )

Fuck..

Honey, could you please come pick me up.

*address here *

Bring a blanket please.

I think I'll drive to the coast. It's been a while and the weather's supposed to be fine for it.

Agenda:
Food shopping.
Call the sitter.
Gas up the El Camino.

Unless there are any other plans. It's the sand, my mp3 player, a bucket of board walk fries and a large lemon aid for me.

If this conflicts with other plans Grim, just tell me.

I'm coming for you bitch.

As I pormised you I would the other night.

It's been decently calm. Other than the crap Grim's dealing with. I kind of feel out of the loop with things. I guess that's to be expected with everything that's gone on recently.

It still is surprising that I am married now. I was pretty sure that would never happen, least of all in the way that it did end up happening.

There is still nothing firm on where the kids and I will be staying, I guess that will come after Friday is over with.
Speaking of which, I am quite pissed at you pastey jackass. You had to go and get your self fucked up in bumble fuck no where. You're keeping my shopping partner away. Couldn't you have done that sort of thing here? Like the rest of us. I mean really, have some thought for others when you're getting your ass handed to you.
Still I am glad that you're okay for the most part. Fuck face, making me worry.

Peter White. You'd better be okay too. If you're up to it I'd like your help with something. I also have some things for you.

This isn't much help at all. I feel like I am going to puke...again. Thanks for all the help, stupid fucking family.

Looks like I am stuck here for a little while at least. Unless I kill someone, then I will be stuck in the jail in town.